In loving memory

R.I.P. Nat,


I'm sorry we didn't take the time to give you a second chance - we all deserve one.
I'm sorry we didn't take the time to show we care.


I pray you've found your way, I pray you're free, and most of all I pray you're happy.

Disappointed.
Know I shouldn't be, but I am.

Which is hypocritical really - if my friends did something crappy to someone else I wouldn't abandon them either, although I would stand up if they did something horrible to a mutual friend... *shrugs* this is medschool, what did I expect- people to be nice?

I should really kmow better anyway, just because someone appears Christian doesn't mean they are

I just hate having to question every single thing

I asked and you lied - perhaps a white lie, but a lie nonetheless

Classic Blair & Chuck

Blair Waldorf: Chuck, NYU is not the Upper East Side. They don't care about Constance, or social hierarchy. They don't care that I'm Blair Waldorf! It's over. 
Chuck Bass: How can you do this to me? 
Blair Waldorf: What are you talking about? 
Chuck Bass: I'm Chuck Bass. And I told you I love you. You're saying I'm easier to win over than a bunch of pseudo-intellectual homesick malcontents. You really insult me like that? 
Blair Waldorf: That's not how it is. 
Chuck Bass: It's exactly how it is. The next time you forget you're Blair Waldorf, remember I'm Chuck Bass. And I love you. 

I can't bear to think of my Grandma up above,
I'm not sure she is there waiting for me.
I'm the worst grand-daughter in the world.
I wish I could have encouraged her to come to God instead of worrying about her earthly comforts.
It's so hard to accept I had a chance to warn her, I didn't grasp the opportunity with both hands.

Why do I find it so hard to talk to my family about Him??

I pray that You will give me courage and strength to encourage others to come to You.
That You will judge my grandma with love and forgiveness.
My grandma was the sweetest person, who showed love and kindness to all around her.
Lord give me the strength to talk to my dad about you, to talk to my grandpa too.

I can't believe I've let so many opportunities pass by without mentioning Your love.
Please don't let it be too late

Please don't let it be too late

I can barely look after myself

How could I be a mother to a bundle of joy that would look to me for guidance and spiritual growth?

I hope I can be as good of a parent as Michael and Sharilyn some day :)

Thankyou

Thankyou for always being by my side
Thankyou for never letting me fall
Please remind me when I start to fade
Please take me into Your embrace
And remind me that Your love never fails

Dear Lord

Dear Lord,
Our Father in heaven,
I pray You will give me the courage to accept when I cannot change things,
to accept the consequences of my actions - however harsh I feel them to be,
and the strength to bear them gracefully.

I know I am possibly the most selfish person I know,
I know I have made mistakes
I know that making amends doesn't mean that I will be forgiven
I know that You will not give me anything I cannot endure
I thank You for giving me this chance, where so many have none
I pray that You will continue to do Your work in me and help mold me into the person You want me to be.

I know I will never be good enough to stand before You, and it is only by Your Grace that I am saved.

I want to be a better person.  I want You to be proud of me.
I want to make my mamma proud.

Please help me remain loving towards R, to care for him as though he were my own brother though it pains me so,
Please guide me.
Please let me remain strong in Your love, keep me in Your care.
Don't let me fade away again, please, that was such a lonely place
I need You in my life.

I come before You, humbled by Your glory
Thankyou for looking over me always
For providing me everything I need and so much more,
So much more also than I deserve
Thankyou for giving me second chance after second chance




Your servant


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